Lamar Odom is getting real about his feelings on how he handled his marriage to Khloé Kardashian. The NBA star expressed remorse over his actions, revealing in his new memoir, “Darkness to Light,” why his behavior still bothers him.
As excerpted by People magazine, Lamar reveals in the book, “I wish I could have been more of a man. It still bothers me to this day. But regret is something we have to learn to live with.”
Lamar and Khloé wed just one month after meeting, and aspects of their relationship were chronicled on “Keeping Up with the Kardashians.” Their divorce was finalized in 2016. Lamar admits in his memoir that he was faithful to Khloé at the start of the marriage, but hid his cocaine addiction and adultery.
“I could not handle the lethal cocktail of the spotlight, addiction, a diminishing career and infidelity,” he divulged. He added that he hopes he and Khloé can someday be friends. “I miss the family. And I hope we can all be reacquainted one day.”
Odom said of Khloé’s loyalty through his struggles, "Her love for me must have been unconditional. That’s the only thing [I think] that gave her the strength to still love me at that time.”
Khloé has previously spoken about her tumultuous relationship with Lamar and its collapse. She chatted candidly with Howard Stern in 2016 about how she was unaware of what was going really on with him until he got a DUI in 2013, adding that she has no regrets about marrying him. "I wouldn't say it was a mistake. I needed that experience. The love I received was the love I needed at that time."