Ariana Grande has dominated music charts over the past few years, and while her popularity continues to soar, so does interest in her personal life. The singer has endured some very public traumas, including the tragic bombing at her 2017 Manchester concert that killed 22 people. She’s also gone through a handful of scrutinized breakups, and the death of an ex.
The 26-year-old pop superstar graces the August cover of Vogue, and she’s reflecting on fame, PTSD, heartbreak, loss, and her relationships. Her boyfriend of almost two years, Mac Miller (real name Malcolm McCormick), died of an accidental overdose in September.
In the interview, Ariana tearfully discussed performing at Coachella, an event she associates with Mac. “I was always a person who never went to festivals and never went out and had fun like that. But the first time I went was to see Malcolm perform, and it was such an incredible experience. I went the second year as well, and I associate...heavily...it was just kind of a mind****, processing how much has happened in such a brief period.”
Ariana also explained her deep connection to Mac and why she decided to tweet in response to those “shaming and blaming” her for his passing. ”People don't see any of the real stuff that happens, so they are loud about what they think happened. They didn't see the years of work and fighting and trying, or the love and exhaustion."
She also touched on her short-lived, but buzzed-about engagement to “Saturday Night Live” star Pete Davidson. She said of their brief romance and how it came to be, “My friends were like, ‘Come! We’re gonna have a fun summer.’ And then I met Pete, and it was an amazing distraction. It was frivolous and fun and insane and highly unrealistic, and I loved him, and I didn’t know him. I’m like an infant when it comes to real life and this old soul, been-around-the-block-a-million-times artist. I still don’t trust myself with the life stuff.”
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August cover star @arianagrande is one of the world’s biggest pop stars, and through her soul-bearing music, often lets us all in on her emotions, her thoughts, and her relationships. Her new cover video featuring “In My Head,” one of the most revealing, intimate songs from her February release Thank U, Next, takes this confessional tendency literally, as Grande dances, shoulder-pops, poses, and struts around inside the white room of her own mind. Tap the link in our bio to watch the full video. Director @bardiazeinali Fashion Editor @jordenbickham Director of Photography @kellyjeffrey Hair @thejoshliu Makeup @chinchilla Production Design @laurennikrooz Producer, @NorthSixproductions @yiauekitalki Video Editor @instagrahamsam, @modern.post VFX @the_frender VFX Supervisor @maxcoltt Colorist @timmasick @company_3 Music “In My Head” by @arianagrande Movement @iamskot @brilovelife Title Design @duzansky Hair Extensions provided by @iloveindique, @insertnamehere Special Thanks to @metpostny Filmed at @pier59studios
She also revealed that she finds it hard to remember the months after Miller’s death because she was “(a) so drunk and (b) so sad.” But the time did result in her hit album, “thank u, next.” She says, “I don’t really remember how it started or how it finished, or how all of a sudden there were 10 songs on the board.”
While Ariana considers herself the “luckiest girl in the world,” at the same time she also feels she might be the “unluckiest.” Ruminating on what she’s gone through, Ariana said, “I’m walking this fine line between healing myself and not letting the things that I’ve gone through be picked at before I’m ready, and also celebrating the beautiful things that have happened in my life and not feeling scared that they’ll be taken away from me because trauma tells me that they will be, you know what I mean?”