Ben Affleck details his arduous journey to sobriety.
In an interview with ABC News’ Diane Sawyer, parts of which were released Thursday, the star of “The Way Back” opens up about a shocking October 2019 clip in which he’s seen stumbling outside of the UNICEF Masquerade Ball in West Hollywood, California.
The year before, the “Argo” director had gone to rehab for the third time in 17 years following an intervention from ex-wife Jennifer Garner.
“I really don’t want my children to pay for my sins,” the 47-year-old remarked about his and his father’s battles with alcoholism. “Or to be afraid for me, which is one of that hard parts of being the child of an alcoholic. You think, ‘What if my dad gets drunk? What if he does something stupid? What if he ends up on TMZ, and it’s on my newsfeed and other kids see it?’“
When asked if he watched the controversial video posted on TMZ, he responded, “I guess I did watch some of [the footage]… I know what it looks like to be drunk. I don’t need to watch any more of it.”
The Oscar winner told the New York Times this week, “Relapse is embarrassing, obviously. I wish it didn’t happen. I really wish it wasn’t on the Internet for my kids to see.”
While speaking to the newspaper, Affleck also revealed that the “biggest regret of [his] life” was his divorce from Garner.
“Shame is really toxic. There is no positive by-product of shame,” he shared. “It’s just stewing in a toxic, hideous feeling of low self-worth and self-loathing.”
Despite this, Affleck wants to learn from his past in order to better his future.
“It’s not particularly healthy for me to obsess over the failures — the relapses — and beat myself up. I have certainly made mistakes. I have certainly done things that I regret. But you’ve got to pick yourself up, learn from it, learn some more, try to move forward.”