Demi Lovato courageously opens up about her history with disordered eating.
On Thursday, the “Sorry Not Sorry” singer made her 10th appearance on “The Ellen DeGeneres Show.”
While applauding Lovato’s recent performances at the 62nd Annual Grammy Awards and at Super Bowl LIV, host Ellen DeGeneres mentioned how Demi’s former management team would allegedly “hide all of the sugar” backstage at the talk show from the musician.
Though Lovato only heard about the claim that day, she detailed the other alleged extreme measures that her ex-team would take to control her weight.
“My life, I just felt, was so — and I hate to use this word — but I felt like it was controlled by so many people around me,” Lovato said. “If I was in my hotel room at night, they would take the phone out of the hotel room so I couldn’t call room service. Or, if there was fruit in my hotel room, they would take it out because that’s extra sugar. We’re not talking about, like, brownies, and cookies, and candies and stuff. It was fruit.”
According to the former Disney star, her ex-team would also allegedly check her bank statements to see what she ordered at Starbucks.
For many birthdays, Lovato would eat a slice of watermelon with fat-free whipped cream in lieu of a traditional birthday cake.
“It kind of became, like, this ongoing joke, but I just really wanted birthday cake,” she said.
Fortunately, for her 27th birthday last August, current manager Scooter Braun gave Lovato a proper birthday cake at a bash attended by Braun’s client/Demi’s friend, Ariana Grande.
In the revealing interview, Lovato also detailed her 2018 relapse after six years of sobriety.
Because of her then-team’s alleged controlling ways and her worsening eating disorder, Lovato became increasingly unhappy.
“My bulimia got really bad and I asked for help and I didn’t receive the help that I needed,” she said. “So I was stuck in this unhappy position. Here I am sober and I’m thinking to myself, ‘I’m six years sober, but I’m miserable. I’m even more miserable than I was when I was drinking. Why am I sober?’”
When she reached out to her team, they allegedly told her she was being “selfish” and left her — something that triggered issues of abandonment caused by her biological father.
“So when they left, they totally played on that fear and I felt completely abandoned and I drank,” she said. “That night I went to a party and there was other stuff there and it was only three months before I ended up in the hospital with an OD.”
Despite what she went through, Lovato takes full responsibility for her actions.
“Ultimately, I made the decisions that got me to where I am today. It was my actions that put me in the position that I’m in,” she said.
However, she wants fans to know that they can overcome any obstacle put in their path.
“I think it’s important that I sit here on this stage and tell you at home or you in the audience or you right here that if you do go through this, you yourself can get through it. You can get to the other side, and it may be bumpy, but you are a 10 out of 10, don’t forget it. And as long as you take the responsibility, you can move past it and learn to love yourself the way you deserve to be loved.”