Khloé Kardashian isn’t afraid to admit that she “hated every minute of” breastfeeding!
In a video published Wednesday, Kourtney Kardashian talks to her younger sister about the trials and tribulations of motherhood.
On the topic of nursing, the “Revenge Body” host remembers getting frustrated at her older sibling, who appeared to have an easier time producing milk for her three children with now-ex Scott Disick: Mason, 10, Penelope, 7, and Reign, 5.
“For me, I remember I used to get almost frustrated with you, not that you even did anything, but you would just talk about this experience you had and how beautiful and, ‘I breastfed for 18 months. What do you mean, you’re not producing milk?’” Khloé said to Kourtney. “You’d just say things, not at all trying to criticize me, but I would take it like, ‘It’s not that easy.’”
Of course, Kourtney’s nursing experience was “not so easy,” as she had to deal with “pain” and learn how to latch — the process in which a baby sucks on their mother’s breast.
Though “pain wasn’t [her] problem,” Khloé believes her issues with breastfeeding potentially stemmed from the “stress” she was under. During this time, baby daddy Tristan Thompson was accused of cheating on Khloé while she was pregnant.
(The couple later broke up after Thompson was accused of having another affair with Kylie Jenner’s then-best friend, Jordyn Woods.)
“I think [that] played a part in why I wasn’t producing as easily, but I don’t know. It was just a lot,” Khloé remarked.
However, once True began losing weight, Khloé’s doctor recommended that she use formula — a decision that made Kardashian feel like she “failed” as a mother.
“I remember the first time I had to give her formula, I felt like I failed. I felt so bad about myself. I thought, ‘Why? Who’s even here judging me? Who knows?’” Khloé remarked. “For me I almost felt like, I swear, like I was smuggling drugs by buying formula. I was like, ‘OK, no, I’m not going to tell anyone.’ I’m like, ‘Why am I even acting like this? Why do I care if people know that I’m formula feeding?’”
When Khloé went public with her decision to quit breastfeeding —tweeting in July 2018, “I had to stop breastfeeding… it was really hard for me to stop (emotionally) but it wasn’t working for my body. Sadly” — she received support from fellow moms who understood her struggle.
“People were like applauding me, thank God, for just being honest. I hated every minute of it. It was torture,” Khloé exclaimed to Kourtney. “I always felt like I was never giving True enough food. I felt like she was always hungry. Once I stopped, though, the amount of pressure that was lifted off my shoulders and I could enjoy my daughter... I’m all for breastfeeding. I tried. But if you can’t do it, you don’t have to feel like a failure. You don’t have to feel like ‘I’m bad at this mom thing.’ I’m great at this mom thing. Breastfeeding, I wasn’t great at.”
Watch the full video (below):