Alyssa Scott Writes Heartfelt Tribute to Her & Nick Cannon’s Late Son Zen

Alyssa Scott is honoring the life of her and Nick Cannon’s son Zen after the 5-month-old boy passed away Sunday from a brain tumor.

Wednesday on Instagram, the mother posted an emotional video compilation of Zen enjoying a bath, lounging with stuffed animals in his crib, and sleeping next to his older sister.

In the caption, Scott remembers Zen’s final moments and the void he left in her life.

“Oh my sweet Zen. The soreness I felt in my arm from holding you is slowly fading away. It’s a painful reminder that you are no longer here,” she began her note.

“I caught myself looking in the backseat as I was driving only to see the mirror no longer reflecting your perfect face back at me. When I close a door too loudly, I hold my breath and wince knowing a soft cry will shortly follow. It doesn’t come. The silence is deafening,” she added.

During their five months together, Scott credited her son with “[keeping] her going” as they “have been in this race together.”

“It would be the middle of the night and you would smile at me. A surge of energy would fill my body and pure joy would radiate from within me. We were a team, both determined to see it through. It feels unbearable running without you now. I can’t. And in this moment I feel myself being carried. By your sister.. By God. By complete strangers encouraging me to not give up.”

Scott declared, “It has been an honor and privilege being your mommy.. I will love you for eternity.”

On Tuesday, Cannon announced the tragic news that Zen had passed after he and Scott noticed that he had a “sinus thing... like a cough,” “interesting breathing,” and that his head grew big.

After seeing a doctor, Cannon and Scott found out that he had a malignant tumor in his head.

“And I think it was called, if I’m not mistaken, fluid that was building up in his head, and that was the cause,” Cannon said. “His head was starting to get big. When we found out it was more, they called it a malignant tumor in his head. Immediately, we had to have surgery. Brain surgery.”

Sadly, things took an “interesting turn” around Thanksgiving when Zen’s cancer “sped up.”

“If anybody knows how cancer is, it was cancer in the brain. And the tumor began to grow a lot faster,” he said.

On Wednesday, Cannon explained his decision to return to work following his son’s death.

“A lot of people keep asking me like, ‘Man, why are you even at work?’ Especially my family members. ‘Boy, you need to go sit down somewhere, you got too many jobs already. Allow yourself to just be yourself,’” Cannon said. “And I appreciate that, all of that advice, and I know it comes from a place of care. But to me, this isn’t work. This is love.”